Mother’s Day has a different meaning to me this year for obvious reasons. In the past 5 months I’ve gotten just a short glimpse into motherhood, but I’ve definitely learned a few things. For one, I’ve learned about a new kind of selflessness. It’s totally wild to have a little person that is completely dependent on us. We’ve gotten little sleep and spent hours upon hours just caring for this little man. While difficult at times, it’s been truly incredible. Why? Because I’ve also learned about a whole different kind of love than I’d ever experienced before. I would do anything for this little person, who has done nothing to earn my love other than be adorable (most of the time). Nick and I have talked several times about how parenthood has allowed us to understand God’s love for us more deeply. God loves us SO much even though we’ve done absolutely nothing to deserve it. Because he loves us so much, he sent Jesus to die for us on the cross. When I look at Theo and am overcome with love and joy, I know that those feelings are only a very small glimpse at how God feels about us. And that’s pretty amazing.
My dear friend Rebecca of Rebecca Keeling Studios stepped out of her photographer comfort zone and photographed Theo’s birth. I’ve found it difficult to put into words how grateful I am to have these moments captured. The photo below is of the single most incredible moment of my life. Of course, marrying my husband and our wedding day was wonderful and the moment I became his wife was one of the best of my life. I think I had some idea what it would feel like to become a wife but I really had no concept of how it would feel to become a mother until this moment. While maybe not the most flattering, it will forever be one of my favorite photos.
Happy Mother’s Day!